Good morning… how do you all handle tension? I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. During the past ten months, I’ve spent a great deal of time in limbo, and being in limbo is so uncomfortable for me. Waiting to hear about projects…. waiting for job interviews to come… so much waiting. Sometimes the tension is so intense that I self impose a release. I snap the tension rubber band by declaring that the worst possible outcome is the thing that is going to happen, because at least If I declare an outcome, even if it’s terrible, I won’t be in limbo anymore. But life is full of tension and limbo. It just is, and snapping it to release it doesn’t actually help me grow.
I’ve been working out several times a week since February and I think going to the gym is the perfect analogy for this limbo living. And I also started, recently, like a couple of weeks ago with boxing as well. When I started, it was extremely hard. I’m training so I will able to run a full marathon by the end of this year. The boxing workouts to get fit and strong where punishing in the beginning, my balance to go to the gym was all over the place and I realized how weak and unused so many of my muscles were. But after weeks of showing up at the gym and breathing into the tension, I began to feel my muscles get stronger. Exercises that were impossible became easy. The workouts and the running sessions went from punishing to cleansing. And now I relish the stretching and the strengthening and the sweating. Breathing into the tension is continually strengthening me, and I think the same can be said for breathing into the life tension as well. If I snap the tension to get some relief, I miss out on the chance to grow into the person I’m supposed to become. My resiliency muscles don’t firm up, and I lose out on movement toward maturity.
So… I’m gonna keep showing up at the gym. And I’m gonna keep showing up at the job interviews, in the meetings, in front of my laptop and I’m gonna breathe into the tension and welcome the limbo and I’m gonna do it with gratitude. It’s important for me to do it with gratitude because I believe there is a reason for this and it is strengthening me and preparing me for what’s to come. How can you breathe into your tension today??
How can you breathe into your tension today?? I would love to hear from you 🙂